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new goal: be more carefree

i just need to live a little. let go of the things that really don't have any importance. i need to get out of my own way, and live freely. 

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randomness

Our youth is running out. Our innocence won't last forever. I need to learn to enjoy the power and beauty of youth; I'm only young once, so why waste it trying to be older and more mature? We all try to act more grown-up, but when we're all grown-up, we only want to be young. That puzzles me. It's just us wanting what we don't have.

"Enjoy your youth, you'll never be younger than you are at this very movement."

I miss these places

When I travel, I really pour my heart and soul into where I go. It's a great thing, because I get so much out of it; but it's awful because it's painful to leave. I grow so attached to the people, places, and making memories. It's always hard to leave home, but by the time I get there, I forget about everything. It's still difficult to look back at pictures and videos of the friends I made, but I know we'll meet again someday. I feel reassurance because I know at some point, if I care enough, I'll make it back; whether that be next year, or in 30 years. As for now, the memories will have to suffice.

Confessions:

I over think everything

Therefore, Im awful at making decisions

I'm extremely opinionated...

although it would be easier if I weren't

I want way too many things I can't have

Which sucks because I can get extremely jealous

I'm not good with goodbyes

I'm still trying to find myself

I want to spend a good couple of years traveling the world

I'm bored of this same thing everyday...I need to leave

I care way too much about the littlest things

I'm scared I won't make enough of a difference in this world

I will always be in love with childhood memories

I wish I could say what I feel with no repercussions

The way humans function confuses me to no end

I don't think I'll ever grasp the concept of life

We're all just as fake as the next person (no one really is completely who they say they are)

I'm content-but that's not good enough

I WILL NOT let my life be pointless

We'll make it out one day. I promise.

I just hope we make it out alive. One day we will live in a world where everyone isn't so obsessed with how people perceive them. One day we'll live in a world where you aren't constantly ridiculed for being different. Society will open up and one day realize that it's boring to be what everyone expects. I'm not saying society has conformed me, but one day it won't conform my children, or their children, or their children. I myself am made entirely of flaws, stitched together with good intentions.
One day it will be different.
At least I hope...

This world is magical, I just haven't been able to see it all for myself yet.

(I will live here one day)

Traveling is my passion. It's an expensive hobby, but I can't help but fall in love with seeing the different ways of life. My favorite places I've been so far are Greece, Italy, Tanzania, Burma, and British Virgin Islands.

I know I'll be able to travel the entire world one day, I'm just not sure when...

Places I still need to get to: Australia, New Zealand, India, Brasil, Portugal, China, Japan, Uganda, Ethiopia, South Africa, Figi, Jamaica, Ireland, Scottland, Spain, and anywhere else possible.

i like things that make me think

keep calm and carry on

I know it's absolutely ridiculous, but sometimes I feel like I'm going through some sort of mid-life crisis. I freak out and feel like everything is going by too fast, like I'm wishing my life away. It's hard to explain, but one weekend will happen, then it's Monday again. I feel like I'm just moving robotically to get to Friday, but meanwhile I've tuned out of a week of my life. It's a vicious cycle that won't end until summer. Then summer comes, and I've been waiting so long for this, but an entire school year has gone by. I remember being in middle school and thinking everything would finally be better when I got to high school. Now I'm in high school, and I feel like I'll finally be content when I graduate. What happens after that though? Will I always be waiting for something bigger and better? I look back, and the last two and half years of my life are a blur. I hope I can learn to live in the moment, and soak everything in. 'Cause if I don't, I know one day I'll regret it. If only time could pause, so I can catch my breath.


"I hope this old train breaks down, then I could take a walk around. See what there is to see, and time is just a melody." - Jack Johsnon (I need to learn from him...)

my current obsessions...

painting my nails

places that are too good to be true

Christmas time

photography

Christian Louboutins

my blackberry

over-accesorizing

fashion in general

hotels

organizing

anything simple

good friends

I quit

Why are we trying so hard to be what we're not. Dare to be different. It's so difficult to stand out in a world where everyone is trying to be different. Originality is dying quickly. Let's keep it alive. It's been said before, but why try to fit in when you were born to stand out?

I know things change

I know very few things about life in general. I know that when you think things can't get any worse, they do; but I also know when you think things can't get any better, they do. I know things change - sometimes for the better, sometimes for the worse - but it's just change. I miss the old people. The people we use to be when our biggest concern was when recess would start. I long for the people that have changed, but I suppose that's all a part of growing up. I know people are bound to transform, but I hope I don't lose myself in that process. I'm the one missing the old people, but I never thought about maybe someone is missing the old me.


I'm obsessed with change [but only in the small ways]. If I could paint my nails a new color every day I would. If I could transform my room everyday I would. I'm coming to terms with the big changes in life though. If things weren't constantly up and down and good and bad, how would we grow? How would we learn? I feel like I'm realizing so many things recently, I wonder if it will always be like this.